asexual has a manic episode

lens of / kaleidoscopic shards / render me 

useless / violet eyes don’t / relay faltering, 

barely-there / morse code anymore / faulty 

signal / broken parts / hollow hole of / 

yearning that never / drilled into / my 

dry-lipped grin / to fight / to feel / is to lie 

to your face / why don’t i love you’s / ever 

amount to / enough? / a poker faced 

confession to / a nothing-crime / i am 

sisyphus and / the boulder of my lacking / 

is wearing down / my marble-veined arms / 

this is a / blindness to / a bonfire inches 

from / inducing sensation / so take me, 

darling / make me feel / what cigarette 

burns / and shredded cuticles / couldn’t / 

love is / war with oneself / and wanting to / 

want to be wanted / i pray the / ashy skied 

dawn / of our everything / stays distorted / 

lens of / sparkling, splintered / glass-fire / 

see me now?