Asexual (adj.): 1. Lacking sex or functional sex organs; or broken, in need of fixing; or

 just haven’t been fucked by the right person;

or

just immature and afraid to have sex;

or

the reason why in the trunk-bed of his SUV, his hot breath on my breasts, I left

my body and entered the roof, praying

to God for death;

2. Involving or reproducing by reproductive processes that do not involve the union of individuals;

or alone;                                                                                                                    or alienated;

or

masturbation,

self-medication

for anxiety;

3. Devoid of sexuality;

boring to boys my own age; or me throughout most of my life;

4. Neither male nor female;

or

I just wanted to be a person;

or

unreal;

or

the source of confusion and nausea

that night when he pressed

his half-hard crotch

against my ass—

When did I become a woman?